Trust I Seek And I Find In You

I had a funny conversation with a girl at work today about relationships and trust.

Basically last night she got home from work and was talking to her boyfriend about something that happened during the day. She accidentally called him by my name instead of his. It's an honest mistake, I mean, we see each other for eight hours a day and the event she was talking about involved something I did. He got jealous and they had a bit of an argument (nothing major but still an argument).

I voiced that it was kind of silly to get into a fight over that and she agreed. So I asked her how she would feel if the roles were reversed; if he had called her by another woman's name.

She immediately admitted she would have been upset as well. I said, "Don't you trust him?" and she went on answering, "Of course I trust him, it's the women around him I don't trust."

This made me laugh; it's obvious that women don't trust men. After all, if your partner was to cheat, it would very much be his or her fault, not the other person involved. The "other" has no loyalty to you at all.

Alright, so we know women don't trust men. Why? Jealousy I'm sure. I understand jealousy; it happens to anyone, whether you have the healthiest relationship in the world. But jealousy and mistrust is something much more personal and has more to do with self confidence and one's self than trusting the other person. It's the fear that someone will replace you and you'll find yourself alone... But yet we take it out on the other person.


The real question isn't do you trust your partner but rather do you feel confident enough in yourself to see that you're the one they want to be with?

You Know I Don't Want The Attention

It's funny how things that used to bother you so much at one time simply don't any longer. Either I'm immune to it due to being subjected to it constantly all the time, or I've simply stopped caring enough to give a shit. I'm just sick of "drama". I'm sick of it at home, at work, online... I don't know, I just don't want to deal with it right now, wether its geared towards me or people just going on about their own drama.

I'm going through a rebirth of such I suppose in my life, with my finances finally taking a turn towards stability and some old ties being severed. The whole process was made a lot easier thanks to the people involved, but it is still something that weights heavily on the mind. I suppose it's a chapter of my life that is closing, but strangely I can't say that I have that noticeable of a "weight" lifted off my shoulders. Maybe it just hasn't sunked in yet, or maybe I'm not letting it sink it. Who knows, and honestly who cares. You often can somewhat guide emotions, but you can't really control them.

It all has to come out sometime.

Flashback

So I browse GameSpot once in a while to check out the new games and read some reviews. I came across an interesting article that just defines how I feel about the NES and my childhood playing it. It was kind of freaky as most of the quirks they talk about I actually did, and their impressions of games, etc just mirrors how I feel.

Anyways, check it out HERE, and make sure you watch the video. It's hilarious if you ever owned a Nintendo.

I Love BloodRayne

Alright so in 2003 this PC game comes out for the GameCube called BloodRayne (later it came out for the PC as well).

The game's about this half vampire, half human super hot chick that bounces around cutting up zombies and Nazis with lots of blood, gore and witty one liners. It's not a game you have to think, it's not even a perticularly hard game... It's just plain ol' bad ass fun. You're slicing up bad guys with those awesome swords, you're a hot chick that's also a vampire, you're shooting zombies in the head and fighting these huge weird ass monsters. Really, after a tough day at work, there's nothing better.

It was love at first sight.


2005 comes around and this time it's called BloodRayne 2. Same thing, better graphics but still the same sexy Rayne. Playboy actually showcases the video game character topless (first time that's happened, if you believe the hype). So far so good... What more can you ask?

So the unexpected happens, and news of a movie comes out. My loveable beautiful vicious BloodRayne would be played on screen by none other than Kristanna Loken, the hot blonde who played in T3. A bunch of other actors are set to have roles: Michelle Rodriguez from SWAT, Ben Kingsley, Michael Madsen... So far, so good... You couldn't really ask for better... Until I saw who was directing: Uwe Boll.

Shit.

So I got a chance to see the movie (even though it never saw a theatre in Canada as far as I know) and I have to say...

It's total crap. What a huge disapointment.

I have probably never seen a worst movie in my life, and Kristanna Loken is actually NAKED in this movie... Yeah I know... Uwe toiletBoll single handedly ruined the movie and a great franchise. Rayne isn't bad ass or witty, the effects are so-so, the story makes no sense... In fact, this site here explains everything that was wrong with the movie perfectly.


I am scarred for life. *sobs*